this is it
Just currently full of the feeling that this is really it. I will never look better than now! But in a good way!
Not that I can't ever look pretty, stunning, sexy, young ever again, but in the sense that I should always appreciate my beauty at all times and that I will one day look back on pictures I am now ashamed of and parts of myself I criticize and think it was absolutely fine!
Even now, I can look back on pictures from 5, 10, 15 years ago and think: Wow I was so cute! I was beautiful! I was fine, normal! Nothing about me was grotesque, wrong, weird, ugly.
So I should really look at myself now and think: This is as good as it's gonna get and future me is going to adore this body. So I should treat it like that.
People are beautiful when they smile and laugh without worrying about how it looks, people are amazing when they don't mind their picture being taken, it's cute and awesome when they don't hide their face or pose or edit. I feel inspired and safe with people who feel comfortable in their bodies and don't care about angles or adjusting their clothing constantly.