harsh

27 Jul, 2025

I try to water down and sugarcoat my opinions on others, and I try to include compliments I genuinely mean and exceptions and everything to soften the blow, but the blow isn't soft enough.

I guess I just have harsh opinions about others, and no matter how much I dull them in public, it is still harsher than others expect. I don't perceive them as harsh myself, I just know they get interpreted that way. I sometimes fear that others think that if I think this way about them, I must hate them or think they're a horrible person, but that's not actually true. I don't know. I can hold these types of thoughts about you while still liking you or being neutral about you.

And I also assume others think I don't judge myself this harshly, just others, but honestly, I judge myself harder.